I wasn't sure how long ago I first read the book "Simple Abundance" until the other night. If you haven't read it- it is broken down into small daily sessions. One of the things that is highlighted in the second week is having a gratitude journal. Years ago when I bought the book- I also bought the accompanying gratitude journal where in you jot down 5 things each day that you are grateful for.
Confession: I am not very good at journaling every day. That year- it was a New Year's resolution. I managed 9 days. I know this because I pulled out the journal the other night when I got to that part. I read it, I laughed at my old self, I read it aloud to my husband, he rolled his eyes and told me that obviously I hold on to things for too long. You see- his birthday is in the first week of January and I journaled that we spent a lovely evening at home for his 33rd birthday. He is now 44. I think he's right.
What that means is I got two lessons in one. First that I have most assuredly changed a LOT in the last eleven years. My priorities have changed, my career has changed, my lifestyle has changed. Second I learned that indeed- I do hold on to things for way too long. I knew I was a little bit of a pack rat- I didn't realize how much. Both of these lessons are a blessing. I am grateful to know that I have evolved even more than I thought I had. That makes me feel so much better about the journey that brought me to this point. The reason that I am grateful to realize that I hold on to things too long is that I finally feel free to get rid of some of the "stuff" and pare down on the things I surround myself with. I have been reading about that as part of simplifying my life but I have been afraid to make that start. I don't know how much throwing away I will do- but I do think I can at least pack some things away and get them out of our day to day space. I am off today, tomorrow and Tuesday- that seems like a good time to get started.
There was also a small victory involved. On that year- I lasted nine days. Yesterday was the 16th and I have read that book each and every night before I settle in with whatever other book I am currently reading. That shows me I have grown there too. Another blessing to be thankful for.