My RA has been more in focus this week because of a comparativly minor flare that I have been dealing with since last Thursday. I have been letting the whole situation get to me on an emotional level and that rather irritates me. So- in an effort to take back my power over this disease- today I am celebrating the positive side of having RA.
1- Pajamas. Noone can complain about us getting back in our pajamas at 4 in the afternoon (or staying in them all day for that matter) and what is better than comfy pajamas?
2- Sleepy side effects. Sundays I always get to nap courtesy of my MTX injections and Wednesdays I go to bed at 6:30 pm thanks to my Enbrel injections.
3- Finding courage you never thought you had. Though I was never afraid of needles (as is evidenced by my tattoos) I never,ever thought I would be able to give myself an injection. Now- I do it twice a week with very little thought.
4- True Colors. When it comes to living with chronic pain and a chronic illness, you find out who your true friends/family are. The way they treat you and your illness lets you figure out very quickly who is supportive and who can't handle it, who will be there with you for the long haul and who backs off. It can be enlightening- but also freeing.
5- The chance to come to terms with who you are. It is ironic how dealing with chronic pain can shake up your self image at it's very foundation. No matter how physically, mentally or emotionally strong you thought you were- it WILL be tested.
Not being able to do something as mundane as tying your own shoes can rock your whole world. It is how you handle it that will show you your true self. It will show your strength and weaknesses. It can make you redefine yourself from the ground up- but that is not always a bad thing. Breaking down your own stereotypes can lead you to someone you like even better.
6- Blessings- when things you are spiraling downward, counting them can not only turn your attitude around, but it can make your blessings more important than the things that are weighing on you.
I am sure there are many more but I am running short on time. Through the day I will try and think of more and it will make my day go the right way rather than allowing my day to be ruled by the pain. For that I can be grateful.