Today was a very cranky day. I don't know what was up with me beside the fact that I was dealing with extra pain today but it started out bad and could have gone very far downhill from there. Just before noon, after I got back from taking my dogs for their training walk, I got into another sniping match with my long suffering, often annoying, other half. This was the third or fourth today. Instead of escalating it- I walked away.
When I walked away I started thinking about this challenge and I knew that I was not in a giving frame of mind. The more I thought about it, the more my brain started racing and the worse it got. I took a few medatative breaths and decided that the only way that I would find peace and get into the right mindset was to give my husband just that- peace.
For the rest of the day I remained outwardly (even when my brain was firing off all sorts of bitchy remarks in my head) calm, I didn't allow him to irritate me (even when he was trying), I played took him (played designated driver) to get a pizza that I was not going to eat from a place that I don't even like, I left him to watch his stuff on the big TV till it was time to take the dogs out and then when we got home I loaded the dishes and let him hop in the shower first. Now he is in bed, I am finishing this up then it will be my turn to shower and head to bed. I am glad I made this choice today. I know that I benefitted from it, he benefitted from it and even the dogs benefitted from it. I think we will all rest easy tonight.
Sweet dreams my friends.