I am having a touch of writer's block. On August 15th I am supposed to speak to my Dad's congregations on the topic of "Where There is Hope." First- public speaking terrifies me. Knowing that whatever I write will have to translate well as I speak makes me shake in my boots. I think the biggest problem is that the very last thing I want to do is let my Dad down.
I have been looking at that page for days. I have my intro complete. I think it's important for the people to know how I came to working on living from a place of positivity and gratitude. That was the easy part. I also have two quotes to pop in there. Another easy part. Now comes the tough stuff, leading those who have had setbacks back to hope. I write and then erase, write some more, backspace. I have written the last three nights and the following morning when I read through it again- out it goes. I think this weekend I will really hunker down to write, but before I do I have to make a vow to stop overthinking and just write from my heart. Then I will send it to Dad and let him suggest edits. I know that I need to just write from the heart and not lead to far into "instructional" mode. Too many years of designing training programs makes me head that way at times and I know it. I just want it to be perfect and I know that I will struggle to let go of that.
I think it's time to set aside the fact that I have to speak and get back to just focusing on the actually writing.