Sunday, October 4, 2009

Sunday, Sunday

Do not let Sunday be taken from you. If your soul has no Sunday, it becomes an orphan.
Albert Schweitzer

Do you know those moments when you look back and want to kick yourself right in the butt? Or smack yourself upside the head and say "What in the world were you thinking?" That is me, when I look at the over 600 Sundays in my life that I wasted. Okay- they weren't exactly "wasted" but they were definitely NOT used for what they should have been.

I try- very hard- to live my life with no regrets. I try to take my mistakes and learn from them. Rather than regret the Sundays I have lost, I try to make the most of the ones I have left. I look at my Sundays now and I guard them as if they were precious gems. I have a full day to rest, relax and recouperate. I have a day to spend with my husband, our pup and at times my parents. I can choose to go back to bed after I walk Miss Dog, or stay up and do housework. I can sit in front of the tele vegging, or I can do something industrious. Best of all, I can and do, spend time reflecting on all of my blessings. Whether I attend church with Mom and Dad or I spend time driving back home or just the whole day at home, I tend to my spirit, my soul. I spend time when possible outside marveling at the beauty that surrounds me. I spend time giving thanks. I spend time looking inside myself. I spend time enjoying the silence. The only one thing that would make my Sundays perfect would be to have Josh with us- but then, that would make every day better.

Today, I am reflect on this:

It's hard to accept, but you can't change the past. You can't go back and manipulate things to the way you wanted them to happen. Because life'd be meaningless and boring and just not worth living. But you can change the future and that's a beautiful thing about life. Yes, you will make mistakes. And yes, you will have bad days - but as long as you let the past go, you'll have such a gorgeous and bright future ahead of you. Knowing that things were meant to happen. Knowing that each day you will learn something so that you keep growing to be a better person. Life is like a rope, twined in all its complexities and yet weaved into one marvelous stream that you have the chance you use something amazing from. So grab hold of it.

Happy Sunday!

1 comment:

LazySusan said...

Thanks for this post on regret. I have a lot to learn from it. My biggest fault is that I spend time in the past wishing things went a different way. I'm even like that with my RA - if only I had not done (insert regret here), I might not have RA. It's inspiring to see your words. I thought you and your readers might be interested in the latest best thing I've used to help with stiffness from my RA - the ChiliPad. It's a mattress pad that lets you cool down (or heat up) your bed, any temperature between 46 and 118 degrees. At first I only used it days when the weather and my joints didn't agree, but then I began using it every night after I realized how much better I sleep - and that my symptoms are reduced the next day.