There's a big part of me that thrives on challenges. Which is fortunate because I have quite a few in my life right now.
Professionally as I mentioned we are in a transition phase. My biggest challenge is to bring my staff up to speed and guide them through yet another set of big changes. In the last three years- they have been through a lot of them and at during each one, there has been some balking. The problem is that now it's time to really evaluate where everyone is and then take a hard look at where we need to be. Fortunately, I have the support of my regional, my client and my assistant.
Personally- well, let's just say that some of my challenges have not changed- I just have not risen to them. I really have to get serious about the weight thing. It is beyond time. I need to set a date and a loss as a focal point and really keep my eyes on the prize. Now- I could do one of the quick fixes- but really- in the long run- it just won't help so I have to remember that it didn't go on overnight- it won't come off overnight and not get discouraged along the way. In this journey, I have the support of my family and some really great friends.
The next challenge is my RA treatment. I am currently on prednisone, tramadol and flexeril on a daily basis and have completed my loading doses of Orencia. Now I am up to a monthly dose of the infusion. Though I am fully aware that it could take many months to see the effects but at this point- I am not seeing it. I am tired, achy and my joints are making themselves known. The topper is that wheneever I have the infusion- I lose a whole day to being sick as a dog. I am feeling like since I stopped the MTX we have taken a HUGE step backward. My challenge is to stay positive for at least three more months before we have to decide if I will stay on this treatment or switch yet again. I have been through most of hte DMARDS- I don't know how much is left to even try. Had my stupid liver not reacted- I would very happily still been on my MTX and doing just fine. I am a little bitter about this- that too is a challenge. For the treatment portion- I know that I can talk to many of my "RA Friends" that I have connected with and they will understand. The bitterness; well- I don't want to be that way- so I need to find it within me to find a positive here. I don't want to be that person that you see on the various chronic pain message boards who is so consumed by their illness that they never talk about anything else. I need to find a way to put the pain in the compartment in which it belongs and the medication issues in their own compartment and give myself a break over the fact that my body decided to rebel.
So those are just a few of my challenges. Putting them on paper helps to focus my mind. Hopefully from here I can create a game plan and start working toward a solution on all fronts.